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on 17th October
2340

[mum returns from work]
girl?
hmm?
oh..eat already?
hmm..sort of la..where daddy?
he went back to work...
bro?
he's not back yet??

at 2356

[milo returns home]
hello everybody! wah...going to 12 already hor...
ohyah!
huh?!? u forgot sis's birthday?? hor!!
no la...girl happy birthday!
orh...
happy happy birthday!

from 0000-00xx

happy birthday to uuu happy birthday to uuu~ [sung to different music]
okayy! guess the actual music!
...

at 0042

[dad returns from work]
girl?? happy birthday!

on 18th Oct
at 0600

[hp beeps]
xxx: happy birthday ;)
[stunned]
me: thanks :)
[phone rang]
happy birthday! hahaa u wake up so early? er..got see my msn nick?
thanks! hmm? no...why?
hahaa okayy nvm ;) what time ur sch end?
i gtg le..take care & have fun..& dont so stress..
hur?
u sound stress...or is it b/c i call? hahaa..
no la...just stress..u take care too..byee..
byee...miss u
[hangs up]
[startled]

damn you. can u stop?
if today was 6 months or so before, just hearing your voice would have made my day w/o fail.
why are tears falling?
the sunrise seems different today
it's not as bright
someone once said that time would dry the tears.
it had been months, yet tears kept falling whenever i saw/hear him...
each day is like one more gap that sets me away from you ever since the day you told yourself you didn't love like me & not to wait for you.
when i stop busying myself, it hurts.
but by saying that, its not as if it can change anything.
you're not going to care, to reply, to come back
nor stop the hurt.
but as i let each day pass, it strikes me that one day, the gaps added up together will make me so far away

by then our images will look so small...
that it's easier to just stop squinting & close my eyes.
or let the waves & tide come take it all away.
...
like writing a lovestory on sand


when he's reduced to a string of digits (yes, your number), something happens.
& then the reason why you moved on, that being cos you've waited for too long, starts becoming invalid..
yes, you start thinking to yourself that maybe this isn't the end, not yet. hope.
& then there are the out of the blue "track-stoppers"
that make you compare yet again
& wish for something better.
it makes you wonder, also
why reminders just have to appear when..
-yes, such great timing,-
when your faith's like a scarf, flitting in the wind,
hanging from a tree branch.

you remember, and conclude: this really isn't anything close to what i'm looking for.
if only..

time can really play fools of us..


all these melodramatics...
il m'aime. un peu? beaucoup? passionément? a la folie. il m'aime ... pas du tout.
pas du tout.
pas du tout.
pas du tout.

mon cher petit ami imaginaire, savez-vous que les blessures?



oh drop it already


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the day went on with frequent birthday greetings :)
some of the senders were unexpected.
like him.
you just had to wreck me up in the morning
i had to take in a deep breath before answering/speaking lest u hear it

i saw it.
miss her. "stop there, from now on i'll come to you" - msn nick


confusing signals.

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Beverly
Milo
Mum & Dad
Sharm
Samantha
TeeYien
Lala
Loriene
WeeEng
Esther
Jocelyn
Sally
Lydia
HongYue
QianLing
Raymond
Zaid
Serene
TeeJun
WenTing
Samantha
WenLi
Tisha
Andrea
Xenia
JianHao
ZhiYao
Jackson
WaiYing
Robin
ChongTat
Jasmine
BoonTat
BaoHui
Jason

i'm sorry if i missed anyone out, & thanks for all the birthday greetings! :)
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been daydreaming about staying in hostel.
my room.
will be able to keep a keyboard in my room
a mini-fridge for milk & fruits + fruit juices & chocolates
ironing board
maybe a goldfish for company
toys & so on...

what else?

let me move to NTU!
oh wait. xxx will be there after his NS.
fine.
i'll stay in NUS then...
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had to give WaiYing' chalet a miss.
school ended late.
& Saturday morning, driving.
afternoon, helping friend with econs...
was looking forward to it.
the all night mahjong & bbq

miss the days back in jj when we were celebrating each other's birthday.
how we try to get a cake for birthdays
how ZhiYao bluffed me & returned to find a cake for me & our Chairman Koh was there...
good times :)

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summing it all up for the day: to write L-O-V-E on her arms

if you get it.