First, 'Happy Birthday!' to WaiYing! :) [starts singing birthday song]

projects concluded today.
EL project last thursday, & SGP project today.
cant help feeling a sense of uneasiness at the end of it
been questioning myself alot on whether i've put in my 100% & more.
felt really guilty when my EL group members, Ele, XinHui, June & Pam, stayed up together with me to cut down on our word limits (1000words, but my analysis & conclusion part was like 800+) till almost 3am for consecutive nights.
& something tells me that Jason didnt slept last night too, & was up doing the essay.
perhaps just a couple of hours of sleep, but he looked really really tired.
he skipped lessons today b/c of this.
the least i could do was to copy down notes during SGP lecture & to pass it to him the next tutorial.

after so many weeks together with my projects mates, it all ended.
just like that.
it came too fast, too soon, crept up on me slyly

kinda strange the other day. just sitting there..in silent.
we had concluded everything during the last project meeting & all of a sudden, there was nothing to talk about.
but just sat there & shared with them the donuts i bought for them from DonutFactory.
felt kinda strange after bidding them goodbye..


new book: I Believe You by Low Kay Hwa
a very sad & touching story.
a good read.
& Sing to the Dawn by Ho Min Fong
cried real hard while reading these two books.
but i should stop for now & focus first

there are many more books that will love to get though!
1. Vanity Fair by William Makepeace Thackeray
2. Bleak House by Charles Dickens
3. The Lost Girl by D.H Lawrence
4. Women in Love by D.H Lawrence
5. Great Expectations by Charles Dickens
6. A Child called 'it' by Dave Pelzer
7. White on black. An Orphan's Story by Rubben Gallego
8. Ugly by Constance Briscoe
9. Shame byJasvinder Sanghera
10. Invisible by Jonathan Buckley
11. Mrs Kimble by Jennifer Haigh
12. The Odd Women by George Gissing
13. Animal Farm by George Orwell
14. ...
some of these, i've read before, but will just love to get hold of them to add to my collection.
after exams! :)


ohyesh, this book, England, England by Julian Barnes is really good.
Utopian genre, helped me with Psychology & SGP society term papers :)
it's a good read really.
talks about the elusive nature of memory, & how the past is used to make sense of the present (past as the fiction of the present) & highlights the juxtaposition such as the idea of authenticity VS constructions, & the invention of traditions.
oxymoronic.
traditions should have existed for a long time rightt?
funny how most of the utopian genre i've read, kinda relates to this society.
Reference to '1984' & 'Animal Farm' by George Orwell, 'The Handmaid's Tale' by Margaret Atwood, 'Brave New World' by Aldous Huxley.. & many others ...

lastly, on racial prejudice, this is what i found.

it says that there is "no scienctific basis for genetic or biological theories of race and that 'much of the history of the genetics of race turns out to have been prejudice dressed up as science" - Ian Marsh
interesting take.

how many of us have courage like this?
used to thought that parading down the roads reflect a genuine concern over the subject matter, & was keen on going down the road during the holidays, yelling "STOP EATING SHARK FIN! STOP STERILISING CATS! STOP ABANDONING YOUR PETS! BLOOD DIAMONDS! WE WANT CHEWING GUM! STOP STEREOTYPING GAYS & LESBIANS! I WANT COOKIEE!!!"

but apparently, it's against the law of..a capitalist state?
"dont waste your time...time is money..do work if you're so bored.."-said mum.
no i wasnt bored.
how many times in your life will you get to have such a long break like that?
rot it away :)
worm.