2007 reflections
flowers in the attic; dusty corners & aging scents
nostalgic. miss jj so much. whenever my girls mentioned stuffs like, "oh there's a coffee club in our school rightt?" i'll think of jj, & can't recall the presence of a CoffeeClub. cos the school they were referring to, is NUS. not jj. miss OGL days, 05A06, the mornings with Elaine & xx, the 6months working with GradNight Comm, Air-Rifle & Air-Pistol team, skipping PC & Chinese lectures, the Malay foodstall, 60cents ice-cream, the 3 bus-stops away dessert stall, hanging around JP, watching him at bball practices, the cat that accompanied us during our late night muggings, Chairman Mao's monologue, everyone in jj etc
in comparison with jj, current school is nowhere near. but i'll give credit to the Jap foodstall & the YongTauFoo stall. perhaps when Edwin's in NUS too, it'll be better? he's real nice & he's most probably taking psychology too! but he'll be my junior haa
Arts Camp was a total fiasco & cost alot. gahh. jj orientation camp was much much fun. & new bonds of friendships were formed then. arts camp? it's kinda hard when most people there come in bulk from ACJC, CJC, SAJC & such. plus, i didnt tried. was way too ticked off by the speed-dating+blind-dating part of the camp to even bother talking to much people. was telling my OGL that i detest the speed-dating part, after he told us that they actually kept changing the programmes so that it fits what SDU wanted. made a remark when i found out, "DAMM IT! the government & SDU or whatever stops at my doorstep & they are not coming into the bedroom & telling me who to sleep with!"
mean.
but NUS is okay. pretty much by myself most of the time. & made a few friends like Jason, Zaid, June, Pam, XinHui, Ele, XY, Judith, SzeMin, Niva, ZuHui, Lester, Vincent, Hannah ... & seeing that i practically missed most economics tutorial, didnt get to know anyone much, except ZuHui i guess.
anyway, next semester will be better
so i guess, when they said that being nostalgic is a negative assessment of the present, that's not necessarily true. there is always something to treasure of the present. it's only natural to miss when something is gone. for good. there's no turning back.
realised that there's this special affinity shared between me & those little thinkers at Gracefield & BoonLay PAP. hearts. really enjoyed myself with them. miss hugging Dalon to sleep. miss Clara's hand holding on tightly to mine. miss Natalie's pretty dancing. miss Lilia's kawaii voice. my one & a half years old toddlers. & my other classes, from N1 to N2 to K1 to K2. joyous innocence. unconditional love.
working at retail's pretty awesome too. i know it's minimum wage, but it's a really different experience to be looking at things from my collegues' window. they may be what some termed as the marginalised people, studying in ITE, NormalTech etc. people who are deemed as lower end & such. to see things from a different perspective makes you think more & feel the way they feel. learned much from them & they were awfully nice to me, despite they had the stereotype that JC people looks down on people who arent academically inclined. that's what Bao, Beverly, Coreen, ZhiIng, JiaJia, LingLi & some other friends love about me. i know cos i'm not exactly academically inclined either.
met up with a number of primary school & secondary school friends this year. BaoHui, Beverly, KahHeng, TeeYien, BoonTat, QianLing, HuiMin, WeeEng, WaiYing, Erika, WenLi, Tisha, Jocelyn, Samantha etc.
keep it going.
so, on the whole, there'd been ups & downs, melodramatic moments throughout the year. that's how my life has always been in a way or more. & that's how i like it too. life can't always been smooth-sailing right? & that's not the way i like it either. will probably turn complacent or bored to death. love thrills & sudden winds. an unexpected wind to blow skirt up every once in a while. whether a surprise attack or a sneaky catch. moments where saltwater fills up in the windows to the soul, & all the soul wants is a way out. & do foolish things. feel that i've grown much this year. i wish i could say i've broken the glass wall, but afraid to step out because of the jagged edges that remains to hurt me. he said, to wait for someone to lend out a helping hand, to pull me out of the shattered pieces & broken glass. but i'm still turning them down. because i yearn to learn to stand on my own two feet. & not to be broken with one blow again. one day..i will make it there. watch me. love the people around me, who are a part of my life in a way or more. hope to learn from my toddlers, the giving & taking of unconditional love. in whatever relationships, to give & take, & not expect. to be frank. another thing learnt - in love, it's either you love or you don't. & now, to put it into practice. & to leap, before i am afraid. there's still much to improve on. to learn to deal with disappointments. to learn to deal with fears.
i wished i had blogged more about days in jj. re-reading posts, & it pained me to miss out the tiny details like how ZY bullied teased me, kept me company, the walk to dessert shop & all those silly little things i love.
it seemed the tendency to exaggerate still remains. what can i say? it's in the blood.
keeping things realistic, my 2008 resolutions:
1. study
2. lose weight+slim down
3. confident factor
4. yoga
5. fruits
6. part-time job
7. exercise
8. make friends
quotes to bear in mind:
- perfectionist can be an obstacle
- each day brings a chance to do better
goodbyee 2007, & hello 2008
♥♥♥
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4:48 PM
emerged victorious after putting forward my case & a strong front
heck, i didn't even yelled for dad when there was a lizard in the bathroom the other day
so there
a little scared, plus was bathing & helpless at that point of time
but screaming for help will add a bonus point to mum+brother's side, & reflect badly on my case
after much civil negotiation with daddy, final conclusions were drawn
note - it failed with mum, cos ended up hollering at each other stupid things
you get the picture
- paying for hostel with my own savings
- no atm card or other easy-credit-withdrawals card
- "allowance" on forthnight basis, but from my own account again, meaning they'll withdraw from my savings & give it to me, only when i return home
- laundry + 3meals + travel fees = none of their business
- phone home back every night
- no boyfriend
thus, it all points back to me having to look for a job during the 3months holiday after the semester
spent the past few days scouting out food outlets near hostel, their operating hours & such
i'm sorry they thought i'll give in & give up, after telling them that mum+brother objected
that they thought i'll just submit
not being rebellious
this is call fighting to learn to be more independent
hardship rubs off people
build character
that sounds better
this whole attitude strongly reminded me of the Milgram's Study though
ohyesh
the movie, In the Valley of Elah, that reminded me of the prison studythe girls Est accussed me of spending too much time with guys
even after spending much time re-editing the post on Christmas eve, to make it sound nothing more than friends, just so that i won't be interrogated again
attempts were evidently futile
their disapprovals will probably never end, cos i'll probably not change
i did nothing wrong right?
but labelled as promiscuous now
note*
on a sadder note, Edwin will only be out on the 3rd day of CNY
...
he has guard duties
i wish..he'll come to NUS real soon
getting impatient.. really
there's this 99.9% of me not being able to see my nicest cousin for another whole year
-sigh-
him+Wister, are two guys i know, who thinks superficial looks are secondary, & kept questioning why i've ditched my glasses, & that if a guy really likes me, he won't mind those dweepy glasses
confidence is the key, they always say
my rebuttal: more confident without my glasses
& they said, character's important too & u're real nice..one day someone will realise you're a gem
rightt
i declare case1 - hostel war - closed.
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10:58 PM
back from the hairdresser's, & the last time i checked, 1 inch is not equals to 5 frigging centimeters!
[grumbles somemore]
stupid lousy lousy lousyyy
unwanted haircut/haircut that turned out different from expected = story of my life
[rawrs]
if i was a witch, would have cursed their asses off!
[grumbles again]
Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious!!!
[nothing happened]
[grumbles somemore again]
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10:30 PM
& that's the dark chocolate christmas cake daddy got for us
sweet!
i meant my daddy.
not the cake.
♥♥♥
early Christmas dinner with family on Sunday, 23rd Dec
shared with mum
ice-cream
cream of pumkin
caramel onions
there was this lovely stall selling the most gorgeous candle-holders
artistic & beautiful
but mum thinks it takes up space
***
24th Dec, Monday
woke up bright & early!
but not early enough to tidy up my messy room
yoga-ed. & BaoHui came over.
3rd friend to my house
table in a mess
met up with her friend, HuiMin & head down to Bugis
x'mas present from BaoHui = a pair of red heels
not the usual flat heels, but high heels
prettyy
it helps to share same feet size lols
walked to Suntec City & shopped at Carrefour
found Irish Cream (Bailey's)
so that's how it looks like
next time then
got lost at Suntec & arrived later than KahHeng at CityHall MRT
next time, sticking to the Citylink Mall
not taking the outside route
got tickets for National Treasure at MarinaSq
went to this bar at Esplanadeone jug - vodka
not drunk
maybe slightly tippsy
but not that bad
at this point, my girls will freak
cos they're against drinking, & even so, me drinking
the music was loud, but some of the songs were actually quite nice & familiar
can never remember song titles tsk
the movie was okayy, but the theatre was not okayy
it was frigging cold
like back in that school library
& some characters just make you want to march up to the screen & tear them to pieces
there's this character who was so rotten, that you'll just feel like slapping him upside down & inside out
okayy fine it's only a movie
foto:
by the bar
oofah
sprite vodka
stayed up for the rest of the night in a park
there was a
good part was that the mouse was not at my feet
bad part, i thought it was quite near us
it was hovering in the background
paranoid paranoid
oofah
i've never been more appreciative of cats
anyway, i was ready to jump onto the bench if it came any closer
learned some things about KahHeng
to conclude, he's changed
according to Bao, wasn't very nice in primary school, but seems to be much nicer now
& i feel so vulnerable cos i'm afraid of so many things like insects, dentists, clowns, water, lightning&thunder, horror films&stories..
the list can go on forever
& i've always thought guys enjoy girls chasing after them
apparently not all
& not all girls enjoy guys chasing after them either
really!
& i don't think i'll go on, lest people start bombarding me on msn or sms again, interrogating me whether so & so is my boyfriend
but anyway, i know there's this girl who's strongly attracted to him
a question was asked - like, what kind of girl/guy we like
hmm good question
i've no idea as well...
left at around 0630 (25th Dec)
the bus was freezing too
almost fell asleep on the bus
but was wide awake when i saw a 103$ receipt on my table
brother's new jacket
been wearing it everyday at home & admiring self/jacket in my mirror
he can get this weird sometimes
but i'm used to it anyway hahaa
when mum & dad woke up, knew something was wrong
obviously, another arguement broke out between them
& no prizes for guessing right
it's definitely the personality clash between mum & dad
dad loves going out, mum detests going out etc
& that's probably why we don't like Christmas
cos she'll ruin our festive mood
like how she tore down the Christmas deco/ornaments i'd hung up around the house, & dumped them back into my room
didn't sleep much
just had to catch the Christmas special cartoons!
it was cute
& now i'm confused as to continue with the day's events or draw a line..
never mind
the mood at home was..there's alot of tension
went down to TiongBahru Park
started playing with some of the kids
reliving childhood
games like tag, catching, hide-&-seek, red-light green-light etc
& they've improvised the game
like for catching, can't just "twix" there forever & it only lasts for 10 seconds, & you can only use it..i think 5 times?
anyway, we lost
cos the kids couldnt count properly; eg. 1234789 10!!
& they actually stand in front of you with their hands 1cm away from your face, waiting for 10seconds to be over
& they were small enough to run under the playground etc
it was loads of fun, like back at Gracefield
hearts the merry-go-round & swings!!
can't exactly hog the swings cos that's like a hot fav among kids, so we were hogging the merry-go-round instead
the train was badly vandalised, probably by students from my brother's school
was looking for some vandal related to him, but none
domestic idyll. heart warming.
father teaching daughter how to ride a bicycle
family making sand castles
mother playing with her child at those horse/zebra thingy
father waiting to catch the child at the end of the slide
swinging the child, who's screaming "higher!! weeee!!"
daddies spinning the merry-go-round, walking round & round & round
mahjong-ed at TY's placewith TeeYien, KahHeng, Glamis &
thought she looks like those intellectual kind
anyway, was super tired after playing catching with
seriously, kids nowadays are kinda small
can't believe that boy's primary 3
he looks like primary 1
& girls look mature
the world is spinning along with me
after climbing down the merry-go-round
one moment, was playing & all
the next, was brain drained while playing mahjong
***
25th Dec, Tuesday 26th Dec, Wednesday
Jeff's leaving for M'sia
holiday
like BaoHui
& Erika's returning to Australia soon too
so suddenly, everyone's going overseas again
& catching-up session with Jeff postponed till he's back then
miss all the lol-days back in jj with him, Lydia & Sally
been watching alot of movies this holiday
Golden Compass Warlords National Treasure I Am Legeng In The Valley Of Elah etc etc
ohyes
hostel application approved!
that's major good news for me
but mum objects & so does brother for once
their stand: lonely & cant bear to see me leave them, & that they'll miss me, no one to talk to etc etc
daddy objected as well, but does agree with me that staying in hostel will be more independent & that builds character
mum thinks that it's expensive & ridiculous to stay in hostel etc etc
if i wanted, she said, i could sell myself for 1020$ & pay for my own hostel fees
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27th Dec, Thursday
met up my girls again!
according to Est, it has been 10 solid days since
dressed up again
town again
the queue was effing long & this woman cut our the queue
people behind were grumbling & pointing at her
she wasn't even behind us, & Lala tried blocking her
smart ass, used her son who was tiny & we didn't even noticed him
he went right in front of us & the mum pretended to go after him & asked the guard something
Est looked ready to kill
Est wanted to get a YogiBear top from Zara but the queue was uber effing long again
it's like everyone's still on Christmas holiday
approached by this girl who was trying to persuade me to join some modelling company
left my number this time
foresee that i'll probably need the extra income soon for my hostel at the rate me & that woman is going
it's like photoshoots & i get paid right? & photoshoots won't take long either right? so it probably won't affect my studies right?
right?
after the movie, Est couldn't find the top & was really upset
could tell that her mood had a drastic change
no longer blooming like before when she was still dating him
she looked sad despite claiming that she enjoys being single
but still reminiscing
went to TCC (between Orchard Emerald & Centrepoint)
the ambience there was as beautiful as i remembered
ordered usual passionfruit drink
shared wedges with Est
gift-exchanged
fotos:
grid 2 - sweet sweet Sharm & Lala
grid 4 - Esther sweetie & me; Est claims i always ruin fotos! lols why can't she just pose properly?! (the one on our left) she thinks i'm too feminie..since when? lols
grid 5+13+14 - presents from my many Santa Claus! so i've been a good girl this year haaa
grid 6+7+10+11+12 - our food ;d
Santa Claus-es been nice to me this year
whole set of nail polishes - top coat, base coat, nutritional coat, strengthener coat, & black nail polish
flaming hot red killer heels
chocolates that i've never had before & more chocolates
pretty glass painted box
ornaments
passionfruit lipbutter
a unique ring & accessories
hugs & kisses (ate the kisses)
wish Est will get better again
365 sweets for her
one everyday
hopefully her days will be sweet&chirpy for the next 365 days to come
bless her
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28th Dec, Friday
ongoing fumigation which i didn't know of cos someone tore down the notice
thus, no lunch, nor going out
i'm not stepping out of the house today
not until daddy comes back & tells me the void deck is clear of roaches
rightt
so there
the day's pretty much spent slacking in bro's room
trying to blog..
listening to bro's singing
chowing down on chocolates KahHeng got for me & there's still another box from Lala & ZY
Zaid's taking 2 similar module similar as mine next semester!
yea yea! a friend to accompany me during tutorials & lectures!
& Elaine may be taking one module similar as mine!
most probably not going for Loriene's New Year Eve's party
ought to be a good girl & stay at home
maybe she'll let me stay in hostel then
there's this 1% possibilty of it happening
starting to think of new year resolutions
most of them doesnt come true, esp 'a tidy room throughout the year' & 'grow taller'
surprisingly, did lose weight this year haa
this year, playing a different tune
but 'lose weight' will definitely stay
meanwhile, daddy came up with terms&conditions for hostel staying
okayy i don't agree to some, like...
it's like, if i'm paying for my own hostel, then that 2 days will be wasted
& frankly, even though i'm saying that i'm just trying out for one semester, really keen to stay throughout & save the hassle of travelling to & fro
but i know they'll never agree to that
they were the ones who moved to this freak place
BukitBatok was so much more convenient
sidetrack:
Loriene's moving, & her mum's contemplating to sell the piano
& it's the exact same reason my very own mother gave when she sold my piano
why are all mothers like that?
i can feel the pain in her now
at the possibility 99.9% of her mother selling the piano
a stab in the heart
there's no heart without my piano
Loriene's piano is a beauty
a rare German beauty
a Johann Bieling
upright grand
so in love with it
it's such an antique, such a beauty..such a pity
Loriene took some gorgeous fotos of the piano itself
great fotog skills
now, i think i'll be going for the party
to see the piano one last time
not making it into a foto grid cos it won't do the piano justice to its beauty
my heart aches..for some reasons
why must she sell the piano...
it's really really beautiful
so much in love with it
the last foto is the inner mechanism of the piano
if you can find something else that's more beautiful than this antique beauty, which you probably won't, leave a note
but then again, beauty is so subjective
♥♥♥
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5:14 PM
been home for 3hours 49mins
smelly, hair like some cock, waiting for turn to use the bathroom
your unglam queen rotting away at 179xx/hr
my week
went out with the girls again on Monday
met up at Bugis, was late
felt kinda bored tired
maybe it's the place
that or i'm just tired
they wanted to check out Haji Lane after reading my entry on how pretty the shophouses there were, & the vibrancy of it all
but i guess they were disappointed
cos the place turned out to be dirty (to them) & empty
& in a small alley
the place usually starts around mid-afternoon, like Bugis Street
& mind you, we were there at 12nn, of cos the place's empty
i know they're trying to accommodate to me, b/c i love going outdoors & walking around places like these
which is also why we went Sentosa the other day for pinic
lunched at ZamZam Restaurant
wasn't hungry cos i ate, but just ordered something
& felt like throwing up after lunch
just felt uncomfortable throughout the day
the bizarre sensation that you might just throw up anytime
Esther drowned a project mate's mouse, & thus went to SimLim to get a new one
had to walk past this row of stalls selling dried seafood & mushrooms
the smell was like gahh
light drizzle as we made our way to RafflesCity
donuts + chippy + gloria jeans
what's missing?
hmm i wonder..
& they said that i was crazy to miss school
i do
***********
but it's packed with kids
it'll be so weird if i just walk in & order a mickey-shaped pizza
& its deco is really kawaii!
the chairs are in the shape of mickey mouse!
i'll love to steal their chairs home!
it'll brighten up my room
the place has changed alot
& was looking at hamsters cuddling together, running on the wheel, washing their little face..
really kawaii!!!
& the foodcourt's not bad either
perhaps more specifically, the chicken karaage bento set & the lagsane, uber delicious! but threw up after having the lagsane the other day
the music school is gone though
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Thursday, drew shoes, emo-ed
& then TeeYien asked to movie with him & KahHeng at Tiong
Warlords (NC16)
went b/c Jet Li's in it! & the first star to appear on screen
thought the show was kinda draggy
in the show, they were chanting "take their money, food & women" before going to war
that ticked me off
& my star (Jet Li) killed TY's star (Andy Lau)
crappy
before the movie started, there was this preview on the horror show
there's this scene, where the person was on the bed, & this mutated baby was crawling towards the bed, crying/wailing
that was really freaky
& all the dark cupboards etc
theatre was freezing, absent-minded freak forgot her cardigan
mahjong-ed with them after that at TY's house
& his room is way tidier than mine!
lots of comics & some weird books, no sign of textbooks nor school files etc
& his wardrobe's 2 to 3 times bigger than mine
lucky duck!
TY's room is so different from his
in his room..there was a tv, dvd player etc
& bro's room? he stole kindly rented his space for selective books (mine), namely intellectual/deep-looking kinds
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a big part of Friday was devoted to Ouran High School
went to the doctor in the evening with Milo & mum
unlike brother, doctor said that i have skin allergies, while his is hormonal issues
a drastic change to my life
stay away from sun, sweat, warm places, & no toys on the bed
gahh
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Saturday morning saw me dragging my lazy ass to the blood donation drive
hiccoughs along the different stations
first station, they questioned my age, & started counting the years with reference to i/c
& at the medical screening station, the person was reluctant to let me go
the minimum weight was 45kg, but was below that
thought i was 45kg++ & she wanted to double confirm
& the blood pressure requirement was 100, but was 83
downed orange juice to try to up the blood pressure
she let me passed
then, the person complained that my vein was small
was really nervous at first, & this two guys were trying to make me laugh & relax, talking, letting me chose the colour of the bandage (my badge of courage) etc
there's this lady (refer to grid 6 of blood donation collage), who was trying to reassure me
was strongly reminded of my lecturer, Dr Saroja
& was very touched by what she said to me after i was done, & a careless tear just fell
that this is the best christmas present anyone could give, because "this cannot be made, only given"
quoted from her
lunched with BaoHui at Tiong MOS Burger
there was this really adorable boy with his parents next to us
probably around 3-4years old
kawaii!
lovely catching up session
& we had fun abusing this certain person in a certain MLM company, who had turned rather nasty after joining the company
we're waiting for the day the company falls
it had ruined a friend of mine, & probably other relationships & friendships
headed down to town after that
FarEast + Wisma + Taka + Cine + Heeren
there were choirs & a cappella in most shopping malls
christmas carols
& guess what? ran into him at Heeren. our last place.
saw YouGuan, Joseph & Jason too
see grid 4? stupid girl's reflection in shiny red x'mas ornament
met up with family at Cityhall for dinner
they were shopping & bought donuts
but dinner was a disaster cos mum wanted Crystal Jade, & dad wanted the so-called new hawker centre at EastCoastPark
dad was persistent; been bugging us to go for quite some time
& the place was lousy - the food was awful, it rained & seats were under those giant umbrellas
Milo didnt eat, mum & me shared salt-laden fish'n'chips, dad had noodles
everyone's mad at dad, probably for overlapping reasons
to think i gave up dinner with QianLing+HuiMin+Erika for this
but then again, today is supposed to be some special chinese festive day, so dinner with family
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it seems that this week, alot of things reminded me of him, no matter however unwilling i am
shoes, old letters, a friend broke up with her boyfriend recently & telling me about it & her feelings, friend's friend pregnant, guy's room, Heeren, Cine, EastCoastPark...
all these built up, & saw him today
learnt that love is not about tears & love letters
nor is it fighting back tears & keeping old letters..
it's like breaking up all over again
& between Edwin & me,
E: haha i realise u oso no confidence in your looks one. haha. smile more ba =)
M: hahaa how u know..i seldom smile?
E: haha no girl. cos i can read!! haha. eh more confidence make the girl prettier. smiling more makes ppl & yourself feel more confident. & i'm sure u're the very cheerful kind. haha right?
he's still the same. as supportive & encouraging. can't wait to share what i've learnt about psychology with him
for the past week, interrogated by people like is TY my boyfriend.
no.
people read too much into things sometimes.
at times, selectively - what i want them to get, they don't.
found out shocking news about friends
it's not hearsay
it's all in their own words
& it's like i've never known them before
i wish i can be more straightforward to them
still trying to get over the drastic change, that i can't go out for walks in the sun, to the playground, along Orchard/Clarke/Botanics etc
to look for a good sunblock
choir was performing this song - Over the Rainbow
i've never heard the full song before, & today, it's live
in front of me
Christmas is coming
joy to the world
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11:11 PM
Notice*
blood donation drive
21st - 23rd Dec'07 at Dhoby Ghaut station
how timely.
the perfect x'mas gift.. for someone out there
definitely going for it.
to overcome the fear of the big pointy needle poking into thy vein.
plus, i'm 19, mum can't stop me unlike back in jc
& to continue from where i left off..
this week had been..full of bad news
monday was alright though
the best among all other days of the week
the weather was bad on monday - raining heavily & freezing but that didnt stopped us from having fun
hell loads of fun
met up at PlazaSing & Mr Foo TeeYien was late againMr Late + Lame + Crappy + Funny
usual people-watching & taking random fotos of the x'mas tree + crowds while waiting
the torment of standing there & waiting
facing the giant menus of Kyoto Sabo Ajitei & Ajisen
it all looks uber delicious & good enough to eat!
"damn it i want jap food i want katsu bento or saba or omu-rice i want ice-cream * mochi" kept running through my mind while waiting
the menu seriously looks good enough to eat!
bought the movie tickets to 'The Golden Compass' first & taht gangsta still hadn't arrived
late late late late late
as agreed, lunch on whoever's late lol
he brought me to one of the jap restaurants & the food was uber delicious! ;das good as the menu promised!
& that gangsta force-fed me the octupus!
but it was actually quite alright
chewy but i don't think i'll order it by myself
cos it looks so gross - scale of 1 to 100, it's 101!
the head & its many legs!
gross
but TeeYien was nice enough to bite off the head, leaving the 8 legs for me
& he started lecturing me, that i shouldn't be so picky
omu-rice + curry katsu!!
not only was the curry not spicy at all, but also apple-flavoured + honey!
i likeee!!!! like really really good!
& the omu-rice's not like those food court kind, where the rice inside the omelette is fried rice with peas+carrots+corn bits, but steamy tomato rice with mushrooms!
the way i like it! just like the jap restaurant back at LiangCourt!
& for a more balance meal, a piece of broccoli & carrot by the side
i ate the carrots, he ate the broccoli
& we were too full for their desserts
booo but their desserts were rather expensive & the movie was about to start
the movie was pretty alright, just that i really detest endings that leaves me hanging
i've forgotten how bright everything becomes after walking out of the dark theatre
head off to Bugis after movie to collect him Jap studies results & he passed! 158 over 200 i think..or was it 250? but anyhow, he's moving on to intermediate level now
i can ask him anything if i have problems with my Jap Studies next semester
& ohh! did i mentioned that Elaine may be taking Jap Studies with me next semester??
yeaa! quality time! hahaa & another lunch mate!
played pool at PoolFusion after that & he had to teach me all over again but there's definitely an improvement compared to the previous timelasted for an hour, & that was too short
well, it was fun while it lasted
can't believe he actually sort of planned the day out in a vague manner
meaning, everything seems impromtu but there's a flow, with accordance to our location
introduced me to place, Miss Clarity Cafe for dinner - serves Western foodnice ambience & adorable deco
so want to bring home their adorable refrigerator, which is filled with Ben&Jerry's ice-cream! tubs & tubs of them!
reasonable price & no GST
& i love the location it's at!
it's one of those colourful shophouses along a one-way street
hearts colour shophouses! they're so vibrant & unique
it was kinda amusing when we were ordering our food
we wanted milkshakes, but the waitress said that their blender was down
he wanted black pepper sirlion steak, but they were out of sirlion
she looked so apologetic & hid half her face with the menu, apparently trying to hide her amusement that everything he ordered was not available
had baked bacon&sausage pasta + hot chocolateTY had black pepper chicken something + fancy-named-coffee (can't remember if it's a a latte or expresso or whatever fancy name it has)
& someone was amused that i ordered "milo" for 3$
hot chocolate taste totally different from milo kayy
if you grew up with a milomaniac at home, you'll learn the difference too
was super bloated after dinner & really felt like throwing up, but that didnt happened until i alighted at my own bus-stop
it's like we had jap food at around 1230, & western food at 1900
it had been so long since i ate this much & really felt uncomfortable after that
before heading home, we head back to Tiong to get my contact lens solution & his bus-stamp
the day was fun nonetheless
it's so much more better
maybe it's because we converse in Chinese, so feel closer
& we have more things to talk about?
TY's secret no. xx - he doesn't like cheese
WJ's secret no. xxx - her "see first" = not a chance = ferociously unlikely
TY's secret no. xx - he can't differentiate hot chocolate from milo
WJ's secret no. xxx - she's always thinking weird weird
& that's according to me & him
lmao
how much truth these statements hold, depends on others opinion
personally, i think the "see first" is not really true..maybe sometimes lols
& the list is getting longer
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okayy. & now, the rest are all a blur.
attempting to recall as much details as possible
Tuesday
rightt. checked out Haji lane, which is a row of shophouses for those who had not been there
it's a nice place for fotog, alas the weather wasn't
which pretty much explains why i've postponed outdoor trips to next year Jan
anyway, the shophouses are really pretty, with interesting deco & themes
another storm was brewing up though, & hurried back to Bugis Junction before it falls on me
the FoodJunction there is really..
the prices are really exorbitant! above 5$+ & the cheapest was chicken rice that cost 4$
this is so unfair
most patrons are probably students & workers working there, & some, say pushcart sales-girls are working at minimum wage of 5$/hour, & one meal is going to cost them this much? & students on holiday most probably can't afford much, driving them to eat at FastFood stations, which are equally over-priced for that bits of potato strips & dry bread & unhealthy
i'm not liking this.
& of cos i remember working at Bugis last year, making sure my lunch & dinner won't exceed my 5$/hour
prices are rising - for driving, petrol, food etc
everything but your wages
ohyes
another thing is this..
dreamt that i was studying for SGP society module on monday night
the next morning (Tues), woke up at 0800 & went "omg i'm late!!"
supposedly, exam starts at 0900
crammed SGP society module notes into bag, grab pencil case, washed up & dashed out of the house & after the bus, slipped & fell
reprimanding self for oversleeping & not packing bag the night before
alighted the bus..& then it hit me that it was school holidays
shit. is this some sort of sign? we'll see
found out that granny has some kidney problems
she went for her usualy medical check-up on Monday &..
i'm feeling really guilty for offering her a donut on Sunday (a day before her check-up)
she's usually really & has always been careful about what she eats
just before the check-up, i offered her a donut
sugar-coated poison to her kidneys
that was plain stupid & reckless
& KahHeng's grandma passed away..
deepest condolences
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Wednesday
met up with Lydia at Orchard
lunched at Taka - omelette jap noodles! ;d
it has been sooo long since i had it!
but it was abit cold, cos we were stopped by this girl who insisted we each draw out a coupon from her lucky-draw-box
someone so very lucky! 20$ taka vouchers! i'm so jealous! hahaa lucky duck!
her mum's so nice to share the awesome voucher, unlike my own mum who's hogging 90$ Robinson vouchers to herself
but then again, there's nothing i'll like at Robinson
Taka has unique jap stuffs!
lots of pretty Christmas teddies & they're all so adorable but so expensive
hearts the tatty-teddy collection!
& there's this Christmas card which i was sorely tempted to get to prank those 2 gangstas!
it says: "to a special uncle"
lmao
inside joke!
TY & KH been calling me auntie for playing mahjong, but they play mahjong too, so been calling them uncle lols
but i have this feeling i'll get whack damn hard if i ever give them that card, so i didnt
lmao
still so hilarious!
head off to FarEastPlaza but nothing much
got another tube top
met Coreen & MengTing
but overall, the place getting kinda disappointing
either that, or i'm getting old
next stop, Heeren
seriously bad experience with that place..
but thank goodness we didnt stay long
Esther was in town, so we met up at NgeeAnnCity
catching up session for the two, while i simply stoned
left for the wake after that
hmm
what i detest is when they asked me, why i wanted to attend the wake when i'm not directly related to KahHeng's grandma.
KahHeng's a friend. since primary 6
& he was there for me when my uncle passed away, & when was in depression
he walked with me, encouraging me & all in a way
there when i needed someone to talk to
so, since i know about it, i don't see why i shouldn't attend the wake
plus, when there's some news about someone dead from a freak death, lots of people attended the wake too
like the little girl who went missing..remember?
YP thinks that it's a breakthrough for me, cos i used to be really scared of such events
& actually, i still am
always taking the longer route around the block to get to the bus-stop, cos it freaks me out to be in close distance with a body that will never move again
i'll never forget the day i returned home from camp, & i probably never blogged about this properly, cos i'll most probably end up crying
but now i'm not
that day, i returned home from camp. the best camp ever.
all excited & happy about jj & wham. uncle passed away.
he's nice. always talking to me during Chinese New Year, cos the other guys/cousins were playing. & i was the only girl of that age.
the rest were still toddlers with adults smiling over them.
& there's this cat that he used to feed everyday
so..CNY will never be the same again, & the cat..will probably wonder where he went...
first trauma was the first wake i ever attended.
my grandpa's.
i wished i was shorter then, so that i can't even look into the coffin
onto the unseeing look on his face
next time, when i die, i don't want this kind of thing
i don't want to freak the little children like me
just burn me already
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& Thursday+Friday+Saturdaymum's order: bring brother out shopping
& so i did, & so i regretted
shopping with brother can get really weird & irritating/annoying.
it's amazing how we kinda look alike both with & without our glasses
gahh
i'm not liking this
& he only bought one shirt the entire shopping trip
such a waste of time & effort
do better if i just went cycling
ran into Coreen again. & Lingli.
the cat next door pee-ed on my shoes this time
gahh
ass.
the cat had been sitting on the shoerack, my shoes every now & then
going to get a higher shoe rack
& a cat alarm..if they have that
saw Daniel with his gf at a bus-stop.
personally, i think the girl looks alright, but not the kind TY nor KH will like.
hmm okayy maybe TY won't. not sure about KH.
they were damn upset when they heard Daniel has a gf & they don't.
& they want to buy a gf. crappy as usual lol
lunched at QL's the other day, & tuition her on economics
felt great! yaa cos i'm so nerdy & such a bookworm.
shoe orders to complete, christmas gifts to prepare.
bought so mnay things, so very very broke!
not exactly looking forward to Christmas.
no countdown nor party nor wild night-out.
boring.
been walking around, snapping fotos of Christmas deco & lightings, to take in the festive mood.
but still nothing. so i've stopped.
threw up a third time this week after dinner - first with TY, then with mum & dad, & then with YP.
catching up session with YP was fun & we actually discussed issues while facing the cruises & sentosa island.
we've grown up? lols
so many things to update each other on.
wanted to go for SuperDog, but rather expensive, so it's back to good old ToastBox.
pineapple jam & strawberry jam!
& the anal part was when this guy was giving out discount coupons for SuperDog as we were leaving Vivo. gahh.
dinner at ChompChomp (Serangoon) & smelled of bbq chicken & seafood after that
gahh
raining.
had pasta, threw up, so poor YP had to finish the satays by himself.
& his herbal jelly drink was in this uber gi-normous jug!
if only my chocolate milk was in that big big jug!it's about as tall as a pair of chopsticks, & as wide as slightly more than half of the chopsticks.
& he had to finish the chocolate beancurb by himself.
was force fed satay. gahh.
but okayy he was super nice to wait for me to try on clothes at F21 & Topshop.
& even scouting out Build-a-bear workshop at HarbourFront centre, which was packed with little children screaming, "i want that onee!! the one on top!" & jumping up & down, as if they could reach that highest outfit at the top rack.
even i couldnt reach it.
YP was so mean. laughing his ass off in the shop lols
& we were abroad this bus & thought it was really nice.
it's like one whole row of seats.
like those double-decker bus where you have those seats facing the windows on the lower deck.
& there were high stools & fancy chairs, which we thought were redundant. apparently, they serve drinks or whatevers. it's still kinda reduntant. cool but yaa. pointless.
well, the really good part is that it's easier to get up.
unlike the 2-seaters, whereby the person sitting on the outside has to get up or the person inside having difficulty getting out.
this other bus, kinda like the Sentosa island bus is probably not as feasible.
few seats. but high.
& there's a seat belt for the middle seat just in case of emergency brake
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full name...
leewanjing
nickname...
melodie
age...
19
birthdate...
18th Oct
horoscope...
libra
zodiac...
dragon
i like...
doodling, Patrick starfish, hot chocolate, cookies&cream, apple crumble, pizza, cakes, chinese rice-cake (nian gao), cartoons, black&white keys, riot of colours, pool, bowling, cycling, clouds, sand, sun, sky, stars, moon, beach, going to supermarkets, cookies & cookie jar, people-watching, unique necklaces & rings, collecting meaningful/pretty zo-cards, japanese cuisine, dogs, dresses, fotog, train stations, being neat & tidy for a few hours & messing everything up again, black nail polish, rocking horses, playgrounds, beancurd, baked apples, grapes, ice-cream, mango pudding, chocolate milk, my handphone & mp3, potted flowers, flower petals, writing notes, salted&sweet popcorn, speeding (gold kart racing), donuts, muffins, cupcakes, pasta, MOS burger, clubbing, dressing up, sandcastles, roller blading, learning new things, jigsaw puzzles, chalet, mahjong, poker, my room, passionfruit fragrance, essential oil fragrances & yoga, new ideas, PeelFresh, balloons & light-sticks, coffee-bear & tatty-teddy, blogging, daydreaming, shirts&fbt shorts, taking long bus rides with my mp3 & concession, to travel, Elmo, Cookie Monster, books about cookies/cakes/pastries/ice-creams/desserts, doll houses, trishaws, shophouses, painting, air-pistol, archery, drum-maniac, snow-globes, music box, unique charms, cello, harp, gift-wrappers, chewing off the head gummy bears, caramel, JayChow & his music, korean & hongkong dramas, CSI, TV, renting DVDs & VCDs, Mutts+Garfield+Calvin&Hobbes comics, Snoopy & Woodstock, rainbow, sitting at the jetty, waffles, fruit lip-balm, music, pretzels, cornflakes/honey star with milk, stamps, unique stickers, brushing teeth, some of my cousins, my family, my friends, my teachers, milkshakes, camping, chalets, LJS & BK breakfast, pineapple tarts, grandma+mum+dad+bro's cooking, pointy killer heels, green, red, black, white, ironing, rushed deadlines, psychology, reading both fiction & non-fiction, seashells, hot-air balloons, Christmas decorations etc
i dislike...
underwater world, medicine, dental appointments, hawker centres, swimming, horror movies, insects/bugs, spicy food, curry, mint, my neighbour's cat, having blisters when wearing heels, smelling horrible after BBQ/steamboat/PC, overcrowded places (like current school which is seriously over-populated), turning on the TV & realised that there's nothing to watch, rainwater being flicked onto legs, chatting on the phone when supposed to be doing something else, touchy guys, baby's crying, amphibians, celery, durian, crowded buses & trains, inconsiderate/irresponsible people, beer, envying models & actresses, people telling me what not to do & worst if they themselves are doing it, my cooking, cup noodles, chips, coffee, newspapers, procrastinating, being forced to do things against my will, short hair, going to the hair dresser but didnt get what i want, people who are smelly/dirty sitting next to me in the bus, people who don't give up their seats to old people & pregant women, impolite services, unreasonable arguments/remarks, stalkers, bouquet of flowers, dandruffs, socks that are longer than ankles, fastfood, dark places, people not using their brains when they talk/say hurtful comments/remarks, cigarrettes, ego-centrism, opening an empty fridge, blackforest cake, cherry, when mum&dad fights, going out on rainy days, vacuum cleaner, rubbish truck, fumigation day, scammers, hackers, some of my uncles & aunties, sudden loud noises, windchimes, fish-market smell, lingerie shopping, people touching/using my things without my permission, internet d/c, carrying bulky stuff, people staring at me, wearing glasses, bad hair days, pink/red nail polish, blue, lightning & thunder, missing fav TV shows, period, bad breath, pimples, blackheads, double chins, fats, broken diry fingernails, armpit hairs, crude jokes, inferiority complex, changing bedspreads, sesame, throwing up, new-born infants & ultra-sound scan fotos thingy, taking fotos of my fugly face, french fries, mayo, mustard, chilli, pepper, my past, not being able to speak fluent Cantonese etc
i want to...
jump before i am afraid, be clinical/counselling psychologists, travel across the continents, eat hawaiian katsu now, have my own house, slim down & get rid of hideous fats, get rid of dark eye rings & eye bags, buy back my piano, ride in a hotair balloon, go to HongKong Disneyland, look for the ultimate one
what i like & dislike about guys/girls...
guys
like: hmm..comical/cartoon, makes me laugh, always there to make me laugh/feel better, guiding me to think more logically, exchange of both intellectual & crappy ideas eg: politics+psych+policies+religion+norms+values+thought-provoking issues etc, sporty, learn more outdoor & fun activities, LOL-ing sessions, relatively collected & calm etc
dislike: always teasing/bully me, force-feed me, naggy, childish at times but they'll rebut & say that they're 'young at heart', tend to carry their jokes too far at times, smelly, gross/disgusting etc
girls
like: generally gentler, more emphasis on crappy everyday happenings, more converging interests etc
dislike: whiny at times, temperament, emotional, gossip mongels, exaggerative etc
my dream is...
to enter YST, not FASS
but things will work out somehow
my ideal partner...
no comments.
i can only say, not xxxx xxx, & xxxxxxx & xxxxxxx, & xxxx, & ..........
definitely not & never ever ever
i wish...
that i never said no
that i'm in YST
that i have hawaiian katsu now, preferably bento set style
my piano was never sold
to be able to talk more freely (liberty of speech) & the courage to
i have more courage
things will turned out alright in the end
& that this thing will end soon...
& a cookie as a reward for completing this hahaa
ohyea. that's all.
off now
hasta la vista
♥♥♥
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5:25 PM
for the past week...
with my girls
catching up session + shopping sprees + LOL-ing session
so many things to update each other on!
but didn't passed my curfew
telly made sure i reached home before curfew
& yes i'm talking about the Korean drama that's on Channel U!
& there's another Korean drama coming up soon again! wish it'll all end before school starts
i'm so hooked on drama series & CSI & cartoons!
Korean songs are forever sad
maybe except for a couple, like the one in My VineYard Man, which had this catchy chirpy tune that keeps my mood up
& you have no bloody idea what they're singing about..
but kudos to the subtitles (available in certain drama series), you get the fuzzy idea what they're singing
but heck, lets cry buckets for the show's sake kinda thing
alrightt, first highlight of the week - pinic at Sentosa
belated birthday celebration for Esther
Friday - 7th December 2007
time.. 0800
location.. kitchen
First thing first, to defrost the donuts & heat them up
meeting time 1030, HarbourFront station
what to wear what to wear..??
tubetop + shorts? bikini? tank top + shorts? sundress + shorts? t-shirt + shorts?
hmm..maybe something else
was running late b/c had to buy back lunch for a certain Mr Lazy
& a certain cat was sitting on my slippers
heyy..come to think of it, that cat may had tampered with my slippers, which gave way halfway through the outing
roars
that cost me 15.90$
time.. 1050
location.. VivoCity
at VivoMart
first mission of the day, to get chips + choco + drinks
lots & lots of them!
next stop, BurgerKing for the girls
then, the monorail to Sentosa!
which took a considerably shorter time to get to the beach, instead of walking in or taking the bus, previously with GradNight Comm
it's just 4 stops to Beach Station!
& the loveliest mode of transport, [drum rolls] tram!
hearts trams!
isn't it fun? not too fast, the pace is just nice for any foto taking along the trail & non air-conditioned
just find it real cute
time.. 1140+
location.. Palawan Beach
abroad sun sand & sea!
second mission of the day, to find the best best best spot for our pinic
with Esther leading the way, we set off across the bridge..
& laying out the food :d
the spot was perfect!
great view, sea breeze, light, & not much ants/bugs
the rest of the day was pretty much spent..
- taking fotos
- Sharm & Lala reading/flipping magazines filled with hot guys
- catching up session
- jamming our earphones whenever a certain someone starts singing
- eating laughing posing slacking
- not so much of tanning since our spot was pretty shady
- video taking
- recording a certain someone's singing
as seen from the above collage
see? grid 6 with a magazine out? LOL
& grid 9, yupp trying to strangle Est after she refused to kiss me in grid 5 lmao
& i'm making things up as i go along
& ohh! so loving! grid 4, Sharm & Lala feeding each other donuts! sweett!
we got bored & started taking random fotos & posing..
first with the trees
& then with the big sculpture of the word 'Sentosa'
the picture pile collage seems more formal
but subsequently, we got a little playful & started climbing on top of the words
did i mentioned the girls spotted a hot guy who was emo-ing?? LOL
it was hilarious when they were plotting to take a foto with him in the background LOL
& more fotos of them
time.. 1435
location.. leaving Palawan
the azure sky started to darken to a deep shade of forbidding atmosphere
the sudden lightning that flashed across the sky signalled our early departure from our beautiful spot
but, that still didn't stop us from posing at the lovely bridge hahaa
time.. 1500 - 1800
location.. VivoCity (again) + Ala-meen
walked around VivoCity since it was still early before we were due for dinner with LeAnn!
as mentioned before, slippers gave way, but thank goodness Lala brought extra slippers! my life-saver!
met up with LeAnn at Ala-meen for dinner
a hearty affair - catching up session + LOL-ing session :)
end
♥♥♥
more happy foto collages
so missed StarBucks NYcheesecake! hearts! :d
TeeYien & KahHeng kept telling me that BakerZin is better
boo
i've been stuck in school library for the past 13+ weeks
living on school food & tibits from vending machines & bread/sandwiches from home
even MosBurger is heaven!
ohh wait, it is heaven to me hahaa
&yesh, with reference to the first foto collage below, grid 6, never try the butter toast
the butter smell is seriously overwhelming that i felt like throwing up after opening it
[hurk*]
did i mentioned there's a giant music box at Bugis?
it's so prettyy!
but i love the giant wedding cake better!
it looks uber delicious! ;q
okayy should stop eating so much else this pig here will explode!!
lmao
on the other hand, getting tired of this vacation
but i can't wait for poly friends' vacation to finally start!
miss them all so badly!!
but after that, i wish time will just fastforward to semester 2
can't wait for school to start
then it'll be all the hectic timetables, deadlines & schedules, tests & exams & term-papers & projects
the more time i spent with you, the more distant i feel
it's like as if we never knew each other
we're so different
i'm starting to feel suffocated
important dates coming up: 18th, 26th
hopefully, things will get better
♥♥♥
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8:29 PM
the dear old granny back in jj passed away,
before i could return to jj on CNY next year to visit her again
with 2 mandarin oranges & a smile
this happened during exam period
the guys were having their usual training
but instead of running on the track, they ran around the school
the track was under renovation
rainy weather, floor was slippery
one guy knocked into granny
& she was in a coma for 13 days
& she died
before i could say anything else
& her funeral was over too
i've always liked her
a sweet old lady
my condolences
♥♥♥
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1:29 PM
personal reflections
this has been my first taste of university life, or rather, NUS life
probably the best advice given, from HuiLing, is to mug hard right from the start & get into the momentum asap
second, from Lester, first semester, take it easy with regards to exam results
with regards to the foto collage:
604 - examination number
took this particular one b/c there were writings (encouragement) on it
& on that particular day, 3 papers on one day & this encouragement just left me all fuzzy inside
there's some warmth in this bug big school
somewhere
red voodoo toy - me
the one with the pin stuck there
nice
work extra hard
extra extra hard
HuiQin asked: are you happy here?
i say,
i love the Jap food stall & the first store (YongTauFoo?) & western stall is pretty okay too
i just wish MacDonald's at FASS instead of BurgerKing
it'll be hot-fudge sundae or McFlurry or strawberry sundae or milkshakes everyday then!
& it'll be easier to bring food to library
not class nor lecture
not exactly polite to eat during lectures nor tutorials
i say,
there are always nice & not-so-nice people
& i've met both
on the whole, people i've come into contact with are relatively okayy
i say,
the lifestyle is really stressful & i'll most probably need some time to adjust to it
not very attached to the school
i say,
bye byee Clementi station & interchange
till next semester then
my room
tidied everything
& by everything, i mean even my wardrobe
usually, it'll just be study table hahaa
unwanted clothes + bags + jeans + shorts + dress, bye byee out you go
else mum will start yelling at me to get clothes hanger too if i keep buying new clothes
a big part of the day was spent filing notes, throwing away scrap paper, walking down to the recycle bins at the opposite block & up again
pens that no longer work, markers which had dried up
& hello
what's this?
[flip flip flip]
ohh so here it is
the comic strip we drew together back then
looking back...we are so super lame LOL
i can't believe we took so long to draw so little comics
& ohh.
the ex-stuffs
i threw it away without thinking today
but seems to regret it & went back down to the rubbish dump
it's not there anymore
& no, i didnt cried
just went, "oh...."
& so many more things i came across
old letters we used to exchange in primary school + cards + our nickname all signed on one small card + the jigsaw piece
put up x'mas deco, which is actually just the christmas stocking i've been using for years since..since really long ago
the new ones aint as nice as the one i have :)
mine has usagi-chan on it!
& i've
the whole thing looks super kawaii now! hahaa
okayy that sounded childish
& anyway, i've added two x'mas hats - on Milo's computer + on my usagi-chan
3 more deco trinklets to go..
the house still looks plain
family not exactly celebrating christmas-christmas
but i just love the festive - esp the giving to the kids
i'm too old to be sitting on Santa's lap & asking for Christmas presents
still wondering what to get for JunFeng - my little sweetheart
what kinda toys should i get for a 2 years old boy?
hmm
off to Toy'R'Us
i'm so outdated on what's new with the kids
toys to them, is like fashion too
comes & goes so quickly
feel like getting Lego blocks..but too young right?
hmmm
& Christmas
not forgetting all the goot food!
i know what to get for Milo this year..DONUTS! hahaa
& hopefully he won't get me food again this year
almost exploded last year
someone said this: it's fun to watch a pig explode
last year
this year, i'm just not going to join in the game
this year Christmas, i want to do something different
whenever i walk into my room now,
it seems so strange
strangely tidy
okay i admit my room wasnt exactly neat in the past, especially on the outside
but messiness got it's own coziness!
hahaa
just not made for the conventional role of housewife
but at 12pm today, the room was really messy from all the unpacking
maybe it's just my messy nature hahaa
well, everything's really neat & tidy (by my standard) now
just have to wait for inspection from the Empress Dowager later
seriously, that feels like someone else's room
on the bright side, i've got new zo-cards pasted all over the shelf
at this point, will ask why i'm always re-decorating the room when tidying up the place during vacation
cracking my head with regards on what to paint
the season of joy
♥♥♥
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