1.
you know what...actually, I don't really actually like myself that much...
nothing but a facade
I despise and look down at that face staring blankly back in the mirror
what a bitch.
you're worth nothing you loser.
haha loser face I'm laughing at you.

I am afterall, a girl.
plain Jane who lives down the street, left turn, & left again, & walk another 67steps west.
keep walking and you'll see the house dangling by the cliff that's giving way.
you'll see the rude bitch.
skinny-bitch-wannabe.

2.
strongly feel that I ought to start taking growth hormones and go for plastic surgery and be an air stewardess or something.
I'm freaking sick of whatever I'm doing now.
or rather, more of myself.
should and ought to have taken up the modelling offer then.

3.
I'm fighting...a losing battle
is she not?

4.
It's only March 22 2008
far far FARR away from 5th May 2008
& I'm caught planning my getaway during my break
any other beings interested just text me.
just...no WFOs as long as i know you personally.

5.
I'm so sweet, I'm going to give you cavities.

6.
who else is not?
[counting off fingers]
it seems like most of them are anyway
it's my turn next
I wonder how it feels to take a long drag
and exhale

7.
at times like these, you just have the mad urge to draw out a knife and chop off their penis
keep your eyes to yourself if you like them the way they are

8.
sleep deprivation.
presented on it, not working on it.
I'm still sleeping past 3am everyday, and waking up at around 6am everyday.
perhaps 7am on weekends.

9.
they're kicking me out of my dorm soon.
alas, sotong queen didn't realise the application was for 08/09 semester 1 as well, till it was 1day before deadline.
& she couldn't log in.
gah.
going to miss that place.

10.
don't like to be led on.
please don't do this...

myheart draws adream
------------------------------------
11:28 PM