i'm not sure if everyone shares the same custom, but Bao, Pei, Kai, Jolyn & me had shared this custom of folding a bottle of wish-ed stars, colourful stars, for a particular teacher. each write a wish for our teacher, & fold the rest of the stars & repeating the wish verbally...
"i wish Mrs Tang will be happy for the days to come..."
[pops a star in]
"i wish Mrs Tang will have a good life after she retire..."
[pops a star in]
"i wish..Mrs Tang wasn't leaving..."
[pops plenty plenty stars in]
& now, though it's impossible for me to get any star-paper & glass bottle now, the picture will have to do...
"i wish my brother will do well for his 'O' levels..& even if not, i wish he'll be able to brave through it...& let the same be for my girls as well!"
good luck!
♥♥♥
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10:02 PM
the first place anyone's getting bug-spray, is because either they can't stand bugs, or they're terrified of bugs, or they just don't want to dirty their hands.
bug spray should really come in pretty cans like the one in the picture, or at least just a plain can with the words "BUG-SPRAY! run for your sorry lives bugs!" emblazoned on instead.
else, it kinda defeats the purpose.
& that's the world, according to yours truly.
to hell with the realistic bugs drawings on spray-cans! curse you!
& now i'm without bug-sprays.
& i don't like bugs. bfft.
gahh.
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11:49 AM
at 0700
socks? check.
alarm clock? check.
bunny??? check.
ready? lets go.
checking in...
at 0935
this is your room key, room 505, block D & that's the drawer key
okayy thanks
after checking in...
at 0950
[reaches room 505, & door was half open]
hmm?? [knocks]
sorry excuse me, are you cleaning the room..?
huh?? this is my room!
ohh sorry sorry..
excuse me, do you know where block D is?
oh, this is tower block, i'll bring you to block D
ohh okayy thanks!
at 1020
okayy that's it, you take care arh, can still come back home anytime, dont have to be weekends kayy? byee girl
okayy byee..
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& there you have it.
your spoilt brat last seen working hard at cleaning out the room
got lost earlier, appeared to be a total lost sheep
the room is much cleaner now, & perhaps the only dirty smelly being in the room is me
maybe plus my rabbit
the room has a pretty nice view, near Cheers & bus-stop
& if i'm hardworking, walking to my faculty will be a great workout
& so is frequenting the track
room is on the 5th floor, great workout climbing up & down
more cosy than before i stepped in
lights are pretty dim though
it's brighter now with the curtains drawn back
room's itchy
bugs bugs bugs bugs bugs
ek. oofah.
first ground rule to self, no eating in the room
i dont want ants as my room-mates
i've got my toy rabbit!
the fotos they showed us were a bunch of lies
it's alot more dusty, itchy, buggy & dim than it shows
aha! PHOTOSHOP! must be!
gahh.
well, that or they cleaned the room thoroughly, squished all bugs & vacummed the dust-bunies before taking pictures
sly
alrightt, some fotos of my dorm
it looks much much decent than first stepped in because i really cleaned the placethe furnitures, & wiped the floor twice, first with soap
& windows, unpacked stuffs & still much room left
met up with my pretties for lunch
& met Jason along the way, Elaine & Esther Kong while buying food..ZhaoYing at Co-op
had katsu curry set! been so looking forward to the jap food stall! ;dlovely catching up session, but what's missing has got to be Sharm!!!
just for her, this is a foto of us :)
till next time sweetie
♥♥♥
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9:56 PM
"it's just you"
& my message is this:
never, & i mean never ever ever, wear 3.5inches killer heels & shop from FarEast to Wisma to Taka to Cine to Heeren to Dhoby to Bugis to Vivo.
unless you really heart angry blisters & pieces of your skin coming off, then i rest my case.
...
& that was our shopping spree along almost the whole of Orchard
much places were on sale & we'd got so much stuff!
got a new wallet/clutch which was really worth it!
the original price was 76$/+?? but got it for half its price!
tops & a pair of new shorts & two pairs of vintage slippers
...
& what's more is we went for lunch at Gelare (FarEast), & dinner at PastaMania (Bugis)
so full... so need to exercise...
threw up after having the pasta
i'm guessing it's too much cream sauce
& that's why i voted for NYDC
okayy fine just wanted the chocolate milk
...
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not much updateslife been revolving around rotting, chocolates, a bad throat, mahjong, tvi, eating & sleeping & breathing
...
went back to jj the other day to fetch brother after his orientation camp
he withdrew from school for personal reasons
took a few fotos
...
it wasnt easy taking it all inbeing an emotional being, i really...
love those days.
& dad wasnt helping, making loud remarks, breaking it all down.
didn't wander far
...
& met up with WeeEng, who couldn't recognised me at first, for lunch at a hawker near Queensway
bought the jap food for me all the way from his school
new Queensway skirt looks better in terms of colour..
but length wise, it's still too long & looks pretty awful
the new PE attire is worst
it's PURPLE!! & jersey kind material
colour of house around the collar
speechless
...
& so far, new timetable really sucks.
school everyday & the timing is so off
full day - 0900 to 1800 w/o break
& the other lessons are spread out to one lecture/tutorial per day
timing goes like this - 1600-1800, 1200-1400, 1800-2000, 1700-2200 etc
still waiting for certain class timetable to be uploaded
...
but he ran out
it's as if he knew i'd showed up but just didnt take up that empty seat next to him
watched him ran down the street searching
raindrops falling hp ringing tears falling
...
this IS for the better
...
& turned down the offer from the company
it's a 5 session training course on catwalking, makeup & the likes of it
sponsored 2000$ training course
there were 3 auditions & the pay is really attractive
probably cover up hostel fees
passed the auditions, but the final decision still lies with me
so i turned them down
after much serious considerations
the opportunity cost is unthinkable
it's either i quit school, go for full-time, or give up this opportunity & focus on studies a.k.a fulltime mugger
chose the latter
& they thought that was pretty stupid of me
...
& had dinner with fam on new year eve at Ajiteithey had another disagreement
& by they, i meant mum & dad
not me, not brother
it's the usual personality conflicts
dad blamed it on PMS
mum got mad at me when i asked about CNY day 3
but didnt thought it was deliberate
my point is...
i know she doesn't like those uncles & aunties & all those visiting etc
but i happen to love my cousins
& Edwin cant make it on day1, only day3 & i was so looking forward to CNY & won't mind visiting cousin Serene & Florine's house & all that
but she does
...
i wish his officer will suffer from amnesia & forget he ever put Edwin on guard duty
cast a spell or something
...
& despite a serious attempt to make it sound like a normal movie & going out kind of thing, people started interrogating whether KahHeng is my boyfriend
i had it.
& something more amusing is that people thought Edwin's my boyfriend just because we've been spamming each other's "wall" (a facebook feature)
they're enjoying it
you would have thought they had unlimited out-going calls & smses
been appearing online less lest be harassed
incessant beepings..
gahh this is getting ridiculous
...
& Est & me had decided to advocate singlehood
but think she's just saying it now
not meaning it on her part
losing sanity
...
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4:25 PM
the other voice
what i hear is resounding and clear. it says :
so he tries to play the "kind role"
so he explains himself
while making no promises.
because he doesn't want to make them anyway.
he's treating me like a fool with his lame reasons he gives and i was letting him.
they say..i deserve better.
each day is like one more gap that sets me away from you ever since the day we part.
when i stop busying myself, it hurts.
but by saying that, its not as if it can change anything.
you're not going to care, to reply, to come back
nor stop the hurt.
but as i let each day pass, it strikes me that one day, the gaps added up together will make me so far away - by then our images will look so small - that it's easier to just stop squinting and close my eyes.
or let the waves and tide come take it all away.
...
secretly i allow myself to think for a second that: "this may be for the better, afterall"
and i see a vicious cycle forming already.
i guess i was kidding myself when i persuaded myself to believe i persuaded myself.
does it make any sense?
yepp, it ain't supposed to.
the only thing that revives is that hope on a string babe. so bad. so so bad its gonna snap, i know.
"we're young, we're fine, let's do some damage."
...
& then you message again, with contents that
now, it just confuses me.
twirling round the edges.
was i the selfish one back then as you said? or were you trying to make yourself feel better?
oh, that's right.
make me carry all the blame & you forgiving me of my so-called faults, & returning to your side.
& now i just feel lost.
maybe love is not my kind of game, but just a glaring weakness.
you laughed when i cried, each time the tide takes our love letters from the sand...
JS says, "dont fall for someone unless they're willing to catch you.."
& that was meant to make me laugh..
i think
not smiling
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looking back, the countdown to 07 had been spent at home.
it was an emo affair, sans loved ones; just the wind coupled with the kind of thoughts that'll only invade sad souls, for company.
no poppers, no alcohol, no fireworks, no laughs.
although this year had all of that and more, i have to admit, it still wasn't what i would call perfect.
nope, no perfectionist here.
but just that i guess (and all of you would agree) it would be much better if we had each other
yes, 07/08, we ought to take a leap.
maybe it might have started out imperfect, but what proof is this on its own?
08 WILL be a fantastic year
yes, lets challenge our cynical voices at the back of our heads.
of course we may screw the resolutions, but lets not limit anything.
Only with this in mind shall the year ahead truly be one heading in the right direction.
with that, let's ring in the new year my friends!
To Improvement & To No Regrets, cheers.
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10:42 PM
