.100

& this starts off with what looks like an innocent post..
a post about the catching-up sessions & love-lunches with my lovelies.
haa

term break at the moment
much going out over the past few days.
good&bad.
depening from which point you're looking at.
from my point of view, it's painted. black.

anyway, quick brief update
catching up session with ZhiYao the other day
my first ben&jerry's
was quite mad when he didnt mentioned anything about his shin injury nor flu/cough (falling sick) over the phone & msn.
& yet he's still out.
walked slowly.
& malted milkshake strawberry milkshake is much more worth the bucks than the regular milkshake (Swensens)
malted version at Marina Sq, fills up to 3 tall glasses of milkshake! 3X the regular.
that was damn goot!
damn goot.
& more love strawberries!
nydc dinner; the usual
elephantino-cino chocolate milk thing..
gah.
can never get the spelling right
but that's why i love it even more
weird spellings that make people go round & round
movie (the L movie) with KahHeng & TeeYien
was better than i thought
show lasted about 2hours plus
ran into Angel & Coreen the other day after one of the project meetings
at Bugis
a new bag right after my white puma bag (17+ months old) gave way
the threads (previously was lousy-ly sewn) split & coins all over the place
& i'm pretty sure some are still left lying around Bugis Junction level 1
new bag is more spacious, big, waterproof, cheap.
it's the cheapest i can find at Bugis Village, so no complaints
though Esther thought it looks "auntie", while dear thought it's "classy" & made a prophecy that goes like this:
'within the next 10 years, Melodie-san will get a LV bag or something similar, meaning stupidly branded bags at exorbitant prices'
Superdog with my dearests
and it was uber delicious!
especially the iced-chocolate milk! ;q
i'm not one who'll take iced drinks, but actually finished the chocolate milk with the ice still in shape
& that says something.
the chicken ripper was good
rather costly if there wasn't offer
their fish'n'chips is pretty good too! kinda like Swensens according to dear
& their fries wasn't that salty
tartar sauce..MOS burger still the best! haa!
but i guess it's not very filling for guys?
dear thought the portion was rather small
but the chocolate milk was goot!
& i should really give the chocolate milk a rest now.
so anyway, SuperDog is new love! fav fastfood, & before MOS burger! haa!
it all boils down to them having chocolate milk! ;q
lunched with my girls at Al-ameen
butter-chicken + butter naan for me
& the usual milo dinosaur
it's damn nice! the combi was just uber delicious & satisfying
bro cooked the other day for me
french toast
it was..okayy
edible.
on a side note, home for term break because dad claimed that there's no one at hostel during the break & it's way too dangerous etc etc etc.
but that wasn't what convinced me to stay.
it was when granny came by with bags & bags loaded with my fav food, back from the market
she's cooking for me
didn't want to waste her efforts in getting all the ingredients, thus stayed
the way she's feeding me this week, it's like as if she thinks i'm malnutritioned in hostel.

bro's school started.
nyjc
& he's not loving it
but jj rock. for me.
his voice is pretty much dimmed. just like my eyes.
life has been sucked out of us by this effing stressful, overloading work
waking up to nightmares
how long can i last?
it seems incredibly surreal
or maybe that's the way i'm wishing it'll be
school has been real lousy
screwed up.
very.
i hate school i hate school i hate school
so tempted to take up Sociology as major & get the hell out of NUS ASAP
get out of my life already.
i want these no more.
last semester, CAP screwed up.
& this semester...
yes i'm damn mad and still mad
after reading teacher's email, asking where the hell our work is,
hell ya.
that's where he's going.

& i missed the flower fest.




another thing is, never
and i mean never ever ever,
turn up on a surprise visit at my hostel
because my face colour may not be very good
it may be either black or white
black, because of school & other equally anal issues
white is because i'm sick. or too hungry.
a big part of my allowance is spent on stationaries, namely pens. black pens.
but point is, msg before arriving at my doorstep

fed up..
with school
with everything
with the freak culture
with incessant buggers
with school
with everything
with the effing bell-curve
with the damn screwed up bidding system
with school
with everything
with pretending to be happy
with acting indifferent to current circumstances
with school
with everything
with school
...

what the hell.
go away already.
freaking mad.

& ohh. leap year.
happy whatever.
& this is coincidentally 100th post.
oh hurray.

.New Love



歌手：方大同
作曲：方大同

填詞：周耀輝

編曲：方大同

在　哪裡記載　一個桃花賊
誰在　哪裡典賣　第一枝紫玉釵

我在　這裡見怪更怪
見過電影裡面人家看海　更想去看海
唱過人家的愛　更想找愛
你哭起來　我笑起來
都為了　愛愛愛

有一天翻開辭海找不到愛
花不開　樹不擺　還是更暢快
愛　還是會期待　還是覺得孤單太失敗
我愛故我在

找到愛　幸福的人　肯不肯躲起來
正在　寂寞的人　能不能站起來

我在　這裡陪你無奈
讀過小說裡面人家等待　更習慣等待
唱過人家的愛　更想找愛
你喊出來　我靜下來
都為了　愛愛愛

揮不去滿天滿地的塵埃
買不起滿街口袋的品牌
你悶起來　我傻起來　可以愛
會不會整個時代只有一個告白
誰不愛過不存在
不明不白　不分好歹
都為了　愛愛愛




歌手：方大同
作曲：方大同

填詞：林夕

編曲：方大同

我終於跑了去唱歌　我不會感到了不得
我只是繼續給予自己快樂
我只是進了這圈子叫娛樂
你說我　變了
變了　變了　變了　變明星了

＊那為甚麼你
　立即把你素臉塗了一個五光十色
　那為甚麼你　當起了模特兒＊

＃我們一個七情上面唱著情歌
　另一個黑了臉走貓步繪形繪色
　深情的絕望的冷冰的火熱的
　一個有聲一個有色

　我用喉嚨把自己的感情表達
　你用你身體表演著別人的風格
　你為了讓我倆好像天造地設　wo...＃

你愛得我瘋了爽了絕了煩了乖了沒了

我為你寫了一首歌　可是你完全認不得
還問我是用心送給誰的
我只好敷衍你是寫給歌迷的
我說你　變了
變了　變了　變了　我快死了

REPEAT＊＃

ah...

我的天啦　你的眼蓋變深了
可是　你的眼光變淺了
你指甲　把我抓得夠緊啦
我也沒夢想炙手可熱　yeah...
我只寫寫歌　唱唱歌　給你聽　怕甚麼

REPEAT＃

你愛得我瘋了爽了絕了煩了乖了沒了



我写了这首歌
是一首简单歌
不复杂也不难唱的那一种歌

这不是那种
只剩下那钢琴的歌
也不是那种
不能只是朋友的歌
这不是那种
两个人的故事写在一本小说
那小说里有谁会在花田里犯了错
这就是一首写给你听的一个

Love song
一直想写一首
Love song
你给了我一首
Love song
那DJ会播放
这也许会上榜
如果我只想写出一首
Love song
一直想写一首
Love song
你给了我一首
Love song
你就像那夏天的凉风
吹过我的面孔
真想飞
在我心底
你就是我的
想说爱你

我写了这首歌
是一首简单歌
不复杂也不难唱的那一种歌

这不是那种童话里会遇见的歌
也不是那种真真切切爱我的歌
这不是那种
两个人的故事写在一本小说
那小说里有谁陪在看流星在降落
这就是一首写给你听的一个

Love song
一直想写一首
Love song
你给了我一首
Love song
那DJ会播放
这也许会上榜
如果我只想写出一首
Love song
一直想写一首
Love song
你给了我一首
Love song
你就像那夏天的凉风
吹过我的面孔
真想飞
在我心底
你就是我的
想说爱你

如果你是一幅画
你会是最珍贵的一幅画
如果那画家是梵高的话
有何贵人前来又献花
个个向你求嫁
梵高他说你们都该回家


如果你是melody
就是最动听
所有的人都会跟着你起唱
就算在夜晚你的心太亮
让我忘了月亮代表我的

Love song
一直想写一首
Love song
你给了我一首
Love song
那DJ会播放
这也许会上榜
如果我只想写出一首
Love song
一直想写一首
Love song
你给了我一首
Love song
你就像那夏天的凉风
吹过我的面孔
真想飞
在我心底
你就是我的
想说爱你



蘇麗珍
作曲 : 方大同　填詞 : 周耀輝　編曲 : 方大同　監製 : 方大同、EDWARD CHAN、CHARLES LEE

如果沒有如果　錯過才知錯過　連旗袍都會為你復活
還有什麼叫你一直沉默　拉拉拖拖　難道就是生活
一句話　一點墨　兩個人　快樂有幾多
你在寫一部寫不完的小說　還是怕一切都會告一段落

＊蘇麗珍　你叫我明白花樣的幽默
＃有情有義有時卻有年華的寂寞　對所愛的人不說　卻對自己太嚕唆
想啊想　這是對　還是錯　到最後總是想得太多＊＃

如果沒有如果　錯過才知錯過　連背影都會為你婆娑
還有什麼跟你永遠擦過　拉拉拖拖　難道就是生活
一個上　一個落　兩個人　美麗有幾多
你在爬一道爬不完的斜坡　還是想一切不如重頭來過

REPEAT＊

兩個人能夠開花就應該結果　能把握也就不該摔破
一輩子最怕闖過一種禍　是不是蹉跎

REPEAT＃


man. i'm so in love.
he's damn cute.
no one's with me on this?
even better! more for me!
he's cancer cancerian.

Love Song - & he used 'melody'!
okay fine.
maybe it's not exactly 'melodie' but it sounds the same.
he brings twinkle to my dimmed eyes.
*a little bit happy happy happy HAPPY
for those who've met my *obsess* emoticon, that's pretty much how i'm acting now.
for those who have yet to met *obsess*, here it is!
OBSESS haa!
lmao.

♥♥♥

.Old Love (still love)










♥♥♥

because, i'll learn

After a while you learn
the subtle difference between
holding a hand and chaining a soul
and you learn that love doesn't mean possession
and company doesn't mean security.
And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts
and presents aren't promises
and you begin to accept your defeats
with your head up and your eyes ahead
with the grace of an adult not the grief of a child.
And you learn to build your roads today
because tomorrows ground is too uncertain for plans
and futures have ways of falling down in mid-flight.
After a while you learn that even sunshine burns
if you get too much
so you plant your own garden
and decorate your own soul
instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
And you learn that you really can endure
that you really are strong
and you really do have worth
and you learn
and you learn...


Veronica A. Shoffstall

& that's...something that i had told myself repeatedly, time & again.
i ought to write this down somewhere..
many times, i came here & write, & delete.
& write, & delete again.
a palimpsest of afterthoughts & sudden revelations

is loving the right person at the wrong time, having the wrong person when the time is right, & finding out that you love someone right after that person has walked out of your life.

sometimes you think you're already over a person, but when you see them smile at you, you suddenly realize that you're just pretending to be over them, just to ease the pain of knowing that they will never be yours again.

for some, letting go is one way of expressing how much they love a person, but for others it's holding on to that special feeling as long as possible before it fades away.

most relationships tend to fail not because of the absence of love.
love is always present...
it's just that one was being loved too much & the other wasn't being loved enough.
we all know that the heart is the center of the body, but it beats on the left. maybe that's the reason why the heart is not always right.

most often, we fall in love with the person we think we love only to discover that for them, we are just a pass time, while the one who truly loves us remains either a friend or a stranger.

this is a piece of advice someone gave me: let go when you are hurting too much. give up when you or the other believes love isn't enough, & move on when things are not like before. there is someone out there who will honestly love you, & only then will you know true love.

这感觉已经不对, 我努力在挽回, 你却微笑的离我而去, 我最后才了解

when your hand slipped through past mine
when your eyes ran from mine
when you no longer hold me close to you & your heart
i know, i shouldnt force it upon you
& so, once again, afraid to love. again.

maybe i should treat this as a figment.
& suddenly all i want now's to stop the cynicism and maybe start feeling really happy.

kiss goodbye
paper heart

it's not a good idea to fall sick when you still have lots of work undo.
this is so screwed up.
waited for around 2 hours at the doctor's.
39.8 degree c.
one day MC.
like it'll help.
frustrating.
& i thought i could study hard today & meet up with cousins tomorrow.
gahh.
so drowsy.
damn screwed up.

what Chinese New Year means to me

on the eve of Chinese New Year, family gather together for the reunion dinner, usually in the form of steamboat. one of the main dishes, is the yu-sheng, which is like a mixture of vegetables, crackers, & raw fish slices etc. the main point is to mix up the entire dish & saying lucky phrases/quotes e.g. happy new year, prosperity.

another thing is lion dance + dragon dance. but lion dances are more common. not sure about other neighbourhoods, but they actually come door to door asking if we'll like them to "dance". it symbolises good fortune. but i guess it's still more common at shopping malls & offices.

next highlight, the food! this is the best part!
Chinese New Year comes hand in hand with lovely cookies, which are always pleasurable to just look at!

Grid 1: Ta-dah! These are rice-cakes! People using facebook, there's this 'give rice-cake' feature & this is what it looks like, & there are many other designs too, for example in the shape of a gold bar, longeivity fishes, longeivity peaches, piglets etc. There's something between longeivity & Chinese hmm. But anyway, there are many many MANY ways to prepare this thing - fried, steam, battered etc. A personal love!!

Grid 2 & 8: These are pineapple tarts - pineapple jam either enclosed in or topped on top of buttery pastry. my message is simply: pineapple tarts are LOVE!!

Grid 3: This is what we call 'bakkwa' a.k.a oily oily slices of bbq pork/chicken/beef. they smell really nice, taste pretty alright but not a big fan of bakkwa myself. it's kinda weird why people choose to queue up for them at Chinatown (the queue is terrible!) when other outlets are pretty vacant? the queue is not that bad at other places compared to the one at Chinatown. festive mood might just be one driving factor. Chinatown is, afterall, our so-called Chinese heritage.

Grid 4: These are candies & sugar-coated snack that have names that means good fortune, luck, prosperity etc my mum loves them. i find them a little too sweet! but they're pretty to look at!

Grid 5: These are melon seeds, or what a friend of mine used to call 'hamster food', but anyway he's weird. he calls vegetables (carrots & cabbages in particular) 'rabbit food', which i find highly offended cos i love carrots & cabbages. there has better be nothing personal there.

Grid 6: These are what i call peanut dainties. not usually much of a peanut lover but if baked right, these cookies are really nice. nutty in taste and has the right sweetness that will entice us to reach for a second one and more! nuts are actually cashew nuts. though some may be peanuts. there are some that comes in the shape of the cresent moon (i know b/c i've seen them, ate them, & my friend made them! hahaa!)

Grid 7: These are kueh bangkit - melt in the mouth coconutty biscuits. Not a big fan of this but mum & bro enjoy them lots. Thought they taste more flour-ry than coconutty. i suppose they come in different shapes too.

Grid 9: These are love letters. Nice & crispy! They come in different shapes & flavours too, but these are the more traditional likes. there're folded love letters, some comes with fillings like chocolate etc.

*note: snacks & goodies dont just stop at these. there are like kuehs & lapis cake, pandan cake, preserved plums/olives etc. all sorts.

first stop is usually to old elders' houses, with two mandarin oranges. catching up sessions, & mahjong sessions. oh & poker, blackjack etc sessions. for the little kids, poppers & sparklers, & even catching up & down the entire block (if it's raining, else at the playground)

there are always pretty roundabouts/revolving plates filled with all kinds of treats. some may be more troublesome as in they have a separate compartment for each, instead of just one lid of the whole thing. but it's still kinda fun when you're playing with little cousins/nephew/nieces & have to eat whatever you open. you have an advantage when you eat everything.

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just in case you start running off with the idea that my Chinese New Year was loads of fun, you're wrong.

this is the worst Chinese New Year.
first, i'm half sick (throat hurts) & i'm really in no mood at all.
all that i can think of is the 2tests, 1 lecture test, 1 oral test, 1 term paper, 1 project proposal, 1 write-up that is all due next week.

second, mum & dad had a fight. me & dad had a fight.
in short, it was an emo affair.

lastly, i didnt get to see my fav cousin Edwin b/c he had NS duties, & Serene & Florine came late this year. by the time both of them arrived, we had to leave. Edwin's booking out on Saturday. but my workload is piling up. gahh this Chinese New Year is damn screwed up. feel like burning down the camp.

something is very wrong with me. very very wrong.
so exhausted.

rightt. so my girls just screamed i didnt update on other things.
so here it is.

Academics
Biological Psychology, Sociology, Japanese Studies, Japanese Language & Animal Behavior.

we'd chopped up brains; ranging from diseased brain to infant's to aged brains & a so-called mouldy brain. with reference to the foto grid below, those greenish lining arent moulds. they're they were blood. it's because of chemical effects. & i'm having problem drawing brains. it looks cotton-candyish! gahh. i'll post a picture when i'm done. oh & there's one that's with the tumour removed. so damn cool. but the brain is amazingly like..tofu-ish. & there's one part which looks like a seahorse, & another like swiss-roll. Niva thinks the lecturer's hot. disagree! lol i think Socio lecturer even hotter! mum & granny thinks the brains are awfully gross & sick. but isn't it amazing? there's one part of the brain, which kinda looks like an omega sign!

my girls
lunched at Al-ameen with my girls the other day (before tutorials start) & as usual, their prata was really filling (for me)
But butbut, i'm definitely going to order butter-chicken + naan next time!
snitched a little of Lala & Sharm's butter-chicken & one naan & it was superb!!
it's not very spicy. & definitely eating more stuff now like curry katsu, & now this. yeayea

been living on school food most of the time, & tastebuds not sick of it yet
my bento set (Dory tamago-ni set!), katsu don, curry katsu..beancurb, yong tau foo the usual..
its really heaty & that's where chrysanthemum tea & watermelon comes in

anyway, we head off to Island Cremery for ice-cream thereafter!
so much love! & much joy!
mini alaska!
& much thanks to Esther's gift from Bangkok!
i want to go Bangkok too! & Bintan & Taiwan & Japan! & cruise!
& this list is just getting longer.

educating...

lastly, theme song changed to 彩虹 by Jay Chow.
the rainbow is more beautiful than the pot at the end of it,because the rainbow is now.

♥♥♥