emerged victorious after putting forward my case & a strong front
heck, i didn't even yelled for dad when there was a lizard in the bathroom the other day
so there
a little scared, plus was bathing & helpless at that point of time
but screaming for help will add a bonus point to mum+brother's side, & reflect badly on my case

after much civil negotiation with daddy, final conclusions were drawn
note - it failed with mum, cos ended up hollering at each other stupid things
you get the picture

- paying for hostel with my own savings
- no atm card or other easy-credit-withdrawals card
- "allowance" on forthnight basis, but from my own account again, meaning they'll withdraw from my savings & give it to me, only when i return home
- laundry + 3meals + travel fees = none of their business
- phone home back every night
- no boyfriend

thus, it all points back to me having to look for a job during the 3months holiday after the semester
spent the past few days scouting out food outlets near hostel, their operating hours & such

i'm sorry they thought i'll give in & give up, after telling them that mum+brother objected
that they thought i'll just submit
not being rebellious
this is call fighting to learn to be more independent
hardship rubs off people
build character
that sounds better
this whole attitude strongly reminded me of the Milgram's Study though
ohyesh
the movie, In the Valley of Elah, that reminded me of the prison study

the girls Est accussed me of spending too much time with guys
even after spending much time re-editing the post on Christmas eve, to make it sound nothing more than friends, just so that i won't be interrogated again
attempts were evidently futile
their disapprovals will probably never end, cos i'll probably not change
i did nothing wrong right?
but labelled as promiscuous now

note*
on a sadder note, Edwin will only be out on the 3rd day of CNY
...
he has guard duties
i wish..he'll come to NUS real soon
getting impatient.. really
there's this 99.9% of me not being able to see my nicest cousin for another whole year
-sigh-

him+Wister, are two guys i know, who thinks superficial looks are secondary, & kept questioning why i've ditched my glasses, & that if a guy really likes me, he won't mind those dweepy glasses
confidence is the key, they always say
my rebuttal: more confident without my glasses
& they said, character's important too & u're real nice..one day someone will realise you're a gem
rightt